Like the calendar itself, some days feel like a repeat of the years prior, and a familiar feeling comes over you. As I get closer to the end of August and nearing the end of my journey project, I am thinking back on how the close of Summer feels and what it has come to mean to us. In my life, the end of August always meant getting back to my life of work, worry, and schedules, all of which I wanted nothing to do with. This year it has a similar feel.
Removing yourself from a familiar space and pace can be liberating and help you see what is important to you. I have been pushing myself to stay active, and try new things every day, keeping the cycle of learning going as long as possible. It can be draining, and it’s a privilege to be able to do it for so long.
I’m excited for a friend from London to visit and take advantage of the opportunity to see Athens and get some time away from the cement city. I wish more people would have visited while I was here, but I am also grateful for the alone time to self-reflect and recoup my energy. It’s been quite the journey so far, and I’m excited to see where I go next.
I feel a bit anxious today, trying to plan out my work time and preparation for their arrival. Similar to when in lockdown, when we are living along for a long time, we don’t realize the mess we’ve created in your safe spaces, now I need to get to cleaning so I can receive a guest! It’s always crazy to me that we put so much effort to present ourselves in a certain way that isn’t natural to us. Still, it’s also interesting that the act of presentation can help us reflect on how we live our lives in ways we don’t acknowledge on the day-to-day.
I still have a long way to go to make myself whole, but I will be forever grateful to my friends and family who have kept me company along the way. I’ve been fortunate to have my support system and people to lean on when I need them. I hope I can be as supportive to others as they have been to me. Through healing myself, I hope to be in a better place to support my family and friends when they need me.