Every day, I will be writing from a variety of topics. I don’t know what each post’s subject will be for each day, but I’ve written a long list that I’ve self-reflected and worked on while in isolation. These will undoubtedly reveal themselves throughout the month. Every morning, I plan to wake up earlier that my first activity and take time to meditate on the day before and see what comes to mind. Whatever subject matter I gravitate to will be the topic of my day; however, it is challenging to share or even accurately express. To an external reader, the outcome can be received in many ways. I hope you can follow and understand that I, in addition to this project, are a work in progress.
The tone each day will shift unabashed with how I am feeling each morning. I intend to be honest with whatever mental state manifests as I welcome the day. I’m giving you a glimpse of my thought process and only editing to make it coherent to an external reader. My mind never stops thinking, analyzing, considering, factoring, and processing throughout the day. By the end of the day, I may come to the opposite conclusion, and I’m eternally reconsidering my stance on everything. Being me is exhausting; my mind never stops.
Anatomy of a Post
I am adding a few elements to the body of each post to keep me honest and provide the reader with additional insights throughout the month. I hope sharing more will help others feel comfortable sharing in their own lives and remove the stigma by discussing topics some view taboo in some form or another.
Balancing all my wants, desires, needs, and emotions is a constant challenge. I am an empath and let most things external impact me in some form emotionally or mentally. Every morning I will let you know where I started the day and if I felt balanced before posting.
My general belief in fulfillment it is rare to ever feel completely fulfilled. The moments when it does happen are just that, moments. Some mornings I wake up and feel overwhelmingly filled, but most days, there is a pang of want that I want to acknowledge and understand more.
I will be assessing my mental state when I wake up and will not hide when I lack optimism or feeling ill-equipped mentally to handle the day. My goal is to require myself to consider my mental health and factor it in as a plan out my time, allowing me to focus on my mental health when needed throughout the day.
Adequate sleep, physical activity, and inspiration factor into how well you power up for the day. I categorize my energy levels in two ways: 1) drive and determination and 2) physical. I have always been able to use my drive and determination to get me farther than my body is equipped to achieve. My goal is to match the two and build the physical presence that supports the lifestyle I live and how I want to live in the future.
Some of what I post will be very personal, and I’ll omit or change names and details to reduce impacting others by sharing my journey. I realize that some of what I will share may not provide me ample room to obfuscate everyone in my life, some of you have been with me through it all and are too magnanimous for others not to know, but I will do my best.
Just know, if I think I need to talk something out with you, I will reach out; if you want to reach out to me, I am happy to discuss further since I may be bringing up things others haven’t thought about in years. For either case, again, I am still processing and self-reflecting. I may not have answers for you, but would still like to keep the communications channels open, however ominous it feels.
On that note, I do hope you enjoy the journey and will continue to build out this site as I learn and grow.